Why am I doing this?

Because I'm tired of unsatisfying friendships and relationships where I carry the group project. I'm a catalyst who yearns for other catalysts.

I don't want to think I'm the only one in the universe that has a million little fun projects. Who injects the lives of everyone around me with whimsy and delight (maybe that sounds overblown? But I do make some really decent snail mail, cookies, and text people I like all the time just because.)

I can’t be the only one who makes a bunch of different kinds of toasts/crostinis, and fancy little cocktails and coffee drinks. Other people must garden and cook and create and think and yearn, right?

Does anyone else want to make puppets and have a parade? Celebrate the solstices with lanterns and wishes under the stars? Tell each other secrets? Meet regularly for hedonist church where we eat delightful things, play or listen to music, and catch up on our lives? Help each other accomplish our wildest dreams? Do things for the story, but also for the happy feel-good feelings of helping a baddie in need?

I can't be the only one. I just... can't. Are you out there? I wrote this for you.